Donny Pauling: Reformed Ex-Porn producer spills his guts

"Therefore humble yourselves under the mighty hand of God, that He may exalt you in due time, casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you."
1 Peter 5:6-7

Donny Pauling is a former porn producer who gave his life to Christ in 2006; this is a talk he gave in Australia in 2012:


Ex porn producer Donny Pauling speaks in Melbourne, Australia. from Guilty Pleasure on Vimeo.


Highlights:

• Son of a Pastor in a legalistic Church where "God seemed to me like a set of rules and regulations."
• Thought: "if this is Christianity, I don't want to have anything to do with it."

• Started with looking at Porn on the Internet.
• Decided to make money producing it.

• Deceived his wife for three years while producing porn.

• "I often confused God with the people who claimed to represent him."

• Grossed over $50k "the first month I didn't have to hide what we were doing."

• "Sometimes it seems like wives are a lost casualty in this war."

• Ex-wife's letter: "Adultery in its most painful form."
• How come this should be her burden?!?
• "So selfish he could sacrifice his wife and children for photographs and fantasy."
• "The reality is that it is an affair and we shouldn't have to put up with the abuse."
• Read in the Old Testament what happened when Israel was unfaithful to God.

• Not one of the 500 girls he recruited into porn has ever thanked him.

• Girls would call him with their images posted publicly.
• One girl had them posted over her father's car.
• Another had them posted all over her college campus, which led the guys to start groping her and leering at her as she went about day to day life.

• Girls would be unable to get hired because of "a few days work" they'd done for him.

• "We'd get them addicted to that money...then you'd literally watch the light go out of their eyes."

• "What's attractive about a girl curled in a ball in the corner sucking her thumb because her mind's so blown about what she just did to herself that she doesn't know how to handle it?!?"

• "What is attractive about the fact that some of these girls would rather be screaming in agony than moaning with pleasure but they know, that like any movie, you have to do take after take before you get it right and if you don't get it right you have to come back tomorrow before you get paid.

• Playboy runs some of the hardest core sites on the internet.

• "Christians click through at a higher rate than any group."

• 90% of Christian men, 70% of Christian women, and 50% of Pastors have looked at porn in the last 30 days.

• "My fiance found my pictures on the internet."

• "Long after she's a grandmother, those pictures are still going to be around on the internet."

• "After working for you, I wanted to commit suicide."

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• Two youth pastors who were sick of what was happening to their ministry.
• "Over the years, I saw that group do crazy things."
• They bring 5000 Bibles to a convention and "always run out."
• "They were Jesus in skin."
• "Over the course of four years, they tore down my hatred and bitterness."
• "They were including me instead of excluding me."
• "Once that hatred was gone, I could no longer justify what I was doing for a living.
• "The Christians I'd always hated were now supporting my family and paying for my education."
• It wasn't easy, "but it was peaceful."

• Sold out being a father "for half a million dollars per year.